No Pizza,
I have only been a member for a brief period of time and you always sound like and angry little man. JP you write in a very passive-agressive style filled with snide, flippant remarks that benfit no one including yourself. Identify your very close friend and ask him/her to coffee and being brutally honest share with him/her your insight into your personality. This is difficult I know but your a smart guy you can do it. Ask your friend to provide an opportunity for expression of concerns, questions, problems, and ventilation of feelings. Ask him/her to provide components of education, emotional support, reassurance, and positive feedback. Agree to meet and do this at least weekly.Be honest and forthrigt. But no pizza.
Mike